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22 May 2005
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I've changed my blog layout. I do hope it looks nicer. Hahas. Alright. Guodong, Jinkeat and me chatted just now. About tomorrow. It seems that Guodong will have to be disappointed. Cos the other side, dusn't seem to be sure about going. Haish. Poor Guodong. He wanted to play BasketBall with them tomorrow. But he refuses to go on his own. Afraid of what people might say. As we were talking just now during the conversation. Favian talked to me. After a long period of ignoring one another's presence. I am not pleased. Yes. I am not. What is done, cannot be undone. Like Guodong's MSN nick today, "Even if you glue back all the pieces of the broken glass, there is still a crack. Sry." Yes. I'm sorry. There's no way we can go back to the past, like it was before. Now, I understand why the relationship between me and him, turns out like that. And there's no way we can change it back. Call Favian the victim, of my cruelty, if you wish. But conditions won't change. It'll stay the way it is. But, I took advantage of the situation. I wanted to know why he asked me that question some time back. Got the answer. Another girl likes him too. Well, truth to be told, I can't be bothered anymore. I'm sick and tired of caring. And good news, I don't care as much. And my feelings, aren't as strong anymore. So Guodong and Yaya, can stop disturbing me. Nette and Joyce, keep urself updated. And Guodong, about the cake, you don't need to write his name anymore. Hahas. I believe, as time passes, the feelings will gradually fade away. I'm sick and tired of this stupid chain/relationship. Guodong talked about Nurrein just now. Well, I can't be bothered anymore. The hatred will slowly, vanish. It takes time. I could tell he was pretty uncomfortable when we talked about her. Well, face up to the fact. She did betray my trust, pass the knowledge to you, and broke our friendship. But, what's done cannot be undone. Thus, I'm beyond care. I guess what I should be focusing now is, not him or Nurrein. But my studies. I'm tired of getting low marks. It's time I stepped up to the game. I have to be serious now on. But, you'll only see another part of me, after June holidays. Hehehs. Well, exams are over. And it's time for everyone to chill, sit back and relax. Imagine getting a D7 for my Amaths. I hate Amaths. 45. Jeez. First time I fail anything that will be reflected in my report book. Haiis. Still haven't tell them about this. I don't know what my parents reaction will be. But, one thing. I know they'll be disappointed. That's why. I'm trying hard to study and understand Amaths. Cik Annie will help. Hope so. And I planned to go to the library. But, I'm just plain lazy. -.-" Yes. I am. Tomorrow? It's public holiday. Sheesh. Doubt the library's open. Give me some enlightment. Tag me. Aisyah. I know between you and Guodong is a misunderstanding, according to you. And according to Guodong, it's a case of backstabbing and betrayal. But, it's not that I don't want to help, but I'll see what I can do. There's a limit to where I can help. However, I still feel that you two should meet up to clear everything up. And yes, Guodong needs time. To get over it. He does. So, be patient alright? And I'm sure you don't want to lose Guodong. I lost him once, and it wasn't a good experience. Got to know, he threw the letter the day I gave it to him. Yet, up to this day, he still remembers the quote I gave him. "Even if you glue back all the pieces of the broken glass, there is still a crack. Sry." That was the quote I gave him when I decided that we shoud no longer contact one another. And now, he's using it to break one friendship. Haissh. I guess if he threw away the letter on the same day, it must have hurt pretty bad. Sry yea boy? It's all over. I hope. But, if people look at me and him now, no one would have guessed that we didn't talk to one another for almost 5 months. Or was it longer? Or shorter? I'm not sure. No one would have guessed that we fought with one another and gave each other cold shoulder. Sheesh. Alright Guodong, now you seen the entry. Don't ask me to delete it. Cos you think it's mushy or whatsoever. I wanna write that, so let me be. Thanks. I don't wanna fall to pieces. I don't wanna talk about it. |
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nor liyana mohd khalis.i'm always in love with pretty boys. like as if i don't learn from experience, i always give in to sweet words. and i never learn from the past. i'm vulnerable to hurt, but i'd like to believe i'm stronger than i seem. jauh di dasar hatiku, aku tahu aku masih kasihimu dan menyintaimu. namun kau sudah berpunya, kau sudah bercinta. disini kita berakhir, tergantung segala cerita dan kisah lama. wishlist
an arsenal jersey please.to watch a play. tagboard
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